January 25th, 2006

We will walk around the campus at night, maybe for one last time, holding hands, bursting in stories of our past and for tomorrows.

Don't worry, I won't ask you to finish your beer. You can pour it in a glass filled with Ice, and I will drink from your bottle. I want to make the night last, I don't want you to be too tipsy.

We will have one nice drive home. No music, just you and me, holding hands, hear each other breath. Who knows, we might detour to a nice adventure.

We'll go shopping. Get a footspa, manicure and probably a facial.

I think I don't want to go to sleep. It might be a waste of time. Well, ok, maybe just a few hours.

We'll listen to Frank Sinatra serenade us with his cool. Maybe we can break into a dance.

I will cry when I see you this march Mads. I will cry and hug you. I will kiss you and will tell you I missed you so much. I will wipe your tears, you will wipe mine.

We'll watch every sunset of everyday we are together. We will also try to catch the sunrise that follows.

We will pig out with a movie or two or three!

I will try to bring you the most beautiful place I know and enjoy Tapsi ni vivians after that.

We will cry. Alot. Fearing of that moment when we have to let go again and part. I'm scared Mads. But we can only be strong. We will know that we will be together again not long after.

Remember when we told each other to take it a day at a time? That we would make sure at the end of the day we are both happy? That's what we'll do. It has since worked for us so that might work. I still fear the pain though, of leaving you. If you think about it, we are given this great chance to spend time together. When that will end, we will go back to normal (what is now) but we will have more stories and pictures and jokes to look back on. We will also have more hope than ever for that next meeting. The one where there will be no end.

I love you Mads. I'll see you soon...

I miss you so so terribly...